真的很不懂

我真的不懂为什么，

我有顾客打给我问我东西，

问我软件问题，要我的协助，

这是我的工作，

反而我被父母骂！

说做么一直电话响。。

有错吗?

是对啦，在我帮我父母，

在摊位很忙，

可是那时是顾客哦！

叫我跟顾客说迟打来，

可是你们要我名声臭掉？

如果顾客是紧急问题要解决，

那怎么办？

真的不懂你们在想什么！！

有时叫我工作做好好来，

现在又这样骂我。

奇怪啊你们，

我越来越累面对你们，

如果有一天我会离家，

都是因为受不了你们，

我真的很累了。

你没给我的压力越来越重，

Haiz。。。

心情27052010

今天都很忙，

都没时间在电脑前上网，

有的话只有一下而已，

在办公室的时候，嘿嘿。。。。。。

在家更不要讲了，

因为电话线割掉了，根本不能上网L

今天去了两个地方，

早上去七里，教导顾客的工人，

怎样用我公司的软件。

=_=可是头很大，

因为他很咯咯的。

不知道我教了他会懂吗！！

下午，我就去Matang Jaya那里，

有新顾客要看我们的软件，

所以就去让他了解。

希望他会买!!J

明天就是卫塞节了，

我很不想在家，

以前的话因为我全家有参加卫塞节游行，

可是今年没有，

很多时突然发生了。

然后，=.=我大姑明天从西马过来，

我不想看到他，

因为他一定要我去申请移民去美国，

成为美国的人民。

我不要，不喜欢，

虽然，那边的利益很好，

可以赚很多钱，

生活环境也好。

可是我喜欢古晋，我不想去那里，

这里有我的朋友，然后是我的家乡

有我的家，有我的床有我的味道，

虽然会比较辛苦赚钱，

可是我会很开心。

然后我是这里出生的，

所以我也要在这里活到老。

如果叫我去哪儿，只让我很想家，

肯本不能专心在哪儿。

明天我想出去，

可是又不知道要去哪里，

Haiz.约我小学朋友，

可是全部又不确定。

L

好累哦，我要出去，

我要上网。

不能上网，真辛苦，

很多东西不能做，

要开quotation给顾客也不能。

现在也等工钱出，

因为要申请3G Broadband，

没有的话会疯掉哈哈。

希望有人约我哈哈。。。

好累，想睡了。

很多东西还没做完，明天要快快做完，

然后就轻松一点了J

Blood Again...

Last month, that is April, I have two times small accident. 1st early of the month, i fall down in bathroom, and seriously cut the skin near my right eyes, now have a scar there...OMG...=_=" and have hurt my neck nerve, lucky my brother bring me to chinese specialist to adjust back the neck nerve. Then took about two weeks to recover the cut near my eyes.

Second, is end of the month of April. What happen? That day is raining day, i still remember is on Friday. I just arrive the place i work. Just open card door, and wanna take my things, I suddenly fall down into +_+" the drain. And hurt my left leg. Damn that really pain, a guy stand there look at me, then just go away, without ask anything. Oh Gosh, =_=" for few days, I cannot work smoothly, it's pain when move my left leg. And also took 2 weeks to recover and =_=" have another scar again. Shiiittt

Then You Guys know what? Now is may right? 3 Days ago, on 23rd May 2010, Sunday, when the time i helping my dad at the stall, I preparing cut food , vegetables, material for dad to cook. Then i feel uncomfortable, keep finding the small knife, but i can't. So i use the big knife to cut meat to cut vegetables, who knows my mom suddenly came in, ask this and that, bothering at there till i accident almost cut of my thumb, "OH SHIT...." That is my 1st words to say when i realise my thumb been cut. I stunt at there, and my mind is blank, dunno what to do. =_="

All shock, my mom help me put all plaster, below is how my thumb look, after put on plaster :

The blood can't stop at all, so my mom help me cover 5 layer of plaster till the blood is really stop.

That is the knife that cut my thumb T_T

It's really very pain, below is last night after i remove the plaster :

That how the thumb look, and very hard to remove the plaster =_=

After put on new plaster XD

This two months =_= very dunno what i doing, always bleeding. My friend say i careless, but =_= i try and try to careful already. Then consider is what already? Bad luck? :( Hope Coming of the month stop got such accident. See my blood till scare lo hahaha.

Niece

My niece currently have changed. She now start will go steal things, even the manners is not good.
Who have make her become like that? Who have let her have hates inside her heart?

Who? Who is that? For what i saw, I heard, Is her own mom. I actually quite angry for it, but that is her daughter I couldn't say anything. Maybe wait I really really Mad.

Why I say like that? Ok, let I ask you guys, a girl just 10 years old, and tell mom, she is hungry. The mother reply, "Hungry? Hungry go cook yourself la....!!!" What do you guys think?

And previously, there was a case happen to my niece. She has borrow money from friends to buy food eat, and she didn't even told us. Till her friend parent call to us, then we just know it. Why she borrow money from friend? why? It is because she is hungry?  Why hungry? No Food? That is easy, why? Because her mother don't ever prepare food for her to bring school, even no breakfast for her.

After that, my dad everyday at night cook food back , for my brother to heat it the next day, to let my niece bring food to school.

Not only that... You guys know what? Every morning, my brother is the one who brush the clothes that very dirty then give to my sister in law to put in machine. The reason she no brush, you guys know what? Is she say cannot squat down to brush the cloth, dunno what pain...1ST HOW OLD IS SHE? and how old is my mom? my mom squat down brush don't ever say pain or what.

Beside that? Current case MY NIECE START WILL STEAL THINGS FROM SHOP!!!! WHY? You know why? My brother ask her why steal, she feedback, because you guys never will want buy for me. For me i really support what she say. Because why? Everytime she want a things or use for school even really needed, she always ask her mom buy, her mom never will buy for her. YOU KNOW THAT , WHEN HER BROTHER ASK FOR IT, her mom will BUY!!!! So unfair u know? She also your daughter... OK!!!!

When everytime my niece and nephew quarrel, you know what? my niece are the one get scold but not nephew. How come can be like that? And even when her mom really go cook, you KNOW COOK WHAT? Vege with gralic or just steam with water only. Even cook with meat, just a BIT only. NOT EVEN ENOUGH FOR 3 PERSON (mean nephew, niece, and their mom) TO EAT.

When my niece got came to help my dad at stall, she is SO CRAVING FOR FOOD. Like so many years don't eat. For this happen in front of you guys, what do you think?

If sometimes not my mom got give Warning, you will see this house will so tidy? Actually now still not as tidy as last time. My toilet is share with them, last time without them my toilet is no smell at all, is very clean. BUT NOW...I feel wanna VOMIT when i walk into it.

Besides, know what? Their mom can left them at Living Room then she go for a nap in room. WTF!!!! If anything happen, HOW? That is Crazy. Because of her!!! My nephew , attitude is damn bad. ONE COMMENT, NO MANNERS KID. But he scare me and his grandpa and grandma. He dare to touch our things, then he will know what is pain.

I say so much also no use, don't ever know how to take care kids, and in unfair ways. Even my brother, I don't know how to say him already. When my mom say him, he say "ok ok, i know i know" Know already how? GOT SOLVE It or not?

Really Tired to see them, Maybe I want to spend more time to take care my niece, I want to change her back, to be the good girl that I know. Because she is me and my parent look her grow since baby. We are the one take care her, since she come to this world. Till she 7 years old, she take care by her parent. Things start become worse. Sigh

Hope will be ok Soon^^

Terminate!!

At Last, I have go TM Point to terminate my streamyx, but i still have to wait 2 weeks for the process to terminate it. Means I still have to pay for May'10 bill. 

Why I want to terminate it? 

There 3 reasons :

1st, my dad want to terminate home use line. why? Because the bill is too expensive. Why expensive? Previously for January and February, because of me, myself have use too much. Then my dad go check, for the bill, how come it cost too much. And he found out i call alot, beside that he found out still have someone always called to others country and some hand phone number that we don't know.  who didi it..? sure is not me... then my dad has guess whose the one always give call. That the reason he want terminate the phone line. 

2nd, because currently I having financial problem...because streamyx bill is I pay. No people support.

3rd Reasons, I currently quite busy, i getting less time online at home. Except at night, I plan to get cheaper Internet access service, maybe 3G? Still reconsider for it.

So, means after 2 weeks, I won't be online at home anymore, except office hour. hehe

Now I very tired

Now I very tired, not tired of reality but tired inside my heart. If you reject me, or don’t like me, or even I got no chance, just told me early ok? If you don’t want me, don’t approach my feeling. When start, you have made me like you, love you. But now, you say that I falling to wrong person, I should not move forward.  I suddenly feel like I losing my road in front of me, love a person very easy but to let go the person you love is not easy. Its need time to recover the heartbreak.

But at the end you told me that, I also no words to say, because I cannot say I go to stop you, right? Must choose me no choose others? No right. I not a cruel and crazy person, because that is your choice, I can’t do any forcing, you got your freedom, but I sick of this kind of life. I’m tired, why I just can’t have a more comfortable, relax love life. To love a person, I not expert how or what she are. Just she can really like me, love me, not going to do as my pass girls that I love enough. I not a perfect person, I not a good person, but I will improve for the person I love, from time to time.

Currently I still feel pain and sad, but what can I do?  No didn’t, I can’t do anything. I only wish luck to the person that I ever love, have their happiness life with their love one. For me,  I only can wait time pass to recover my heart that have become pieces, have a lot of times become pieces, break, gum back, break again, gum back, a lot of scar left inside the heart, cannot be fully recover but at least better.

Worse is now, I have a lot things haven’t finish, especially my works, still have done yet. I hope I can do it soon. With the current mood, really destroy my confident of doing anything. Really tired, I really hope others people don’t same as me. Live happily ok? Happy Go Lucky, don’t because of love destroy your life. ^^